WHAT IF...

''Why are you still single? "

For few minutes I couldn't answer his question

I was lost!
Lost for words...

I wasn't expecting the question

I had to say something;

 "I haven't found the love of my life'

I was right but it was not the main reason.

I asked myself,

Why?

"Love of my life?"
Really?
Hmmm!

What do I mean by that?

I coudn't even say.
I didn't understand myself.

Love?
What is LOVE?

I always ask this question, I get different answers but I haven't experienced it.

But,

What if I see the love of my life I claimed looking for but couldn't recognize him?
What if the love of my life is someone I know
What if there is nothing like 'love of my life'
What if...


I was confused,
What could be the cause of my being single?

There are many reasons though,

It doesn't bother me at first but since he asked the question, I have been wondering.

I don't go out!
I'm always indoor!
The few friends I have,
I don't contact them.
This is a boring life mehn
I don't reply my chats.
I don't call people.
I rarely receive calls.
I can't even hold a conversation.
I limit my male friends(friends? are they even my friends? Honestly, I can't really say, these are people I met online even the ones I had when I was in school, service and at work I don't contact them)

I don't want this boring life.
I am about to change that.
I am seriously working on it.

"Don't expect any man knocking on the door asking you to date him"

My sister once told me.

I need to be out there.

Why am I like this?
I wasn't like this few years ago.
I was the outgoing, friendly and fun type.

I have not been in a serious relationship, the only one I had was not so to say.

He said he loved me.
I wanted to see how it works.
How it feels like being in a relationship.
I went into the relationship with him.
I never wanted sex.
He said he was "okay" with that.
So we started 'dating' we spent time together.

He couldn't wait, he needed me closer enough(sexual) but all I wanted was to have a male friend I could trust, somebody that would be there always and keep each other's company.
He started messing up. I heard from different sources that he's always with different girls because I couldn't give him the sex he wanted he got it from them anyways.
I was a bit disappointed I had to walk out of the relationship. Yes! I ended it for good.
Though, I like him but it wasn't love.
Since then all the guys I have been meeting attempts to touch me, they want a taste of it.

What if the problem is the sex?
What if there is no guy who is ready to stay loyal
What if I can't find the one that will agree with me
What if...

Maybe I am the mean one
Maybe I am selfish
Maybe I am...

No,

I can say I am strong
Strong enough to stay
Stay and wait
Wait and remain focused

I pray I meet the right one for me when the time comes.
May God help me.

IN MY DREAM

When I close my eyes
All I see is you
Your face full of smiles

***

Looking at me
Full of life
You said to me
Be my wife...

#gbemieth

WHERE IS THE LOVE

Why am I still single
When guys are ready to mingle

What I want
All I want

I've not found
How does it sound

That I'm still searching
And praying

By the way
My fear is not the delay

I don't want a crush
I don't want to rush

All I want is pure love
From the one I love

#gbemieth

prinCESS

...Continuation...

After few minutes the Maid brought the rice for Mama Princess. She is happy to see the food especially when she saw the big chicken on the rice. Full of smiles she said 'Ha! thank you oo eh! This one too much for me na' 'No, please just manage it' Mrs Johnson said 'Manage ke. Okay o' Mama Princess said as she starts to eat. Still smiling. The Maid brings Princess's food to her, Princess collected the food and sits on the rug to eat. 'No, sit on the chair my dear' Mrs Johnson said. 'Let her sit on the rug ma, it's better that way' Mama Princess said. 'Oh no, let her sit on the chair' Mrs Johnson said. 'Okay o, oya come sit for chair here' Mama Princess ordered as she points at a chair beside her.
As they eat their food Mrs Johnson excuses herself to one of the rooms. After eating the food and doing justice to the chicken she picks the ones in-between her teeth. Princess is still eating slowly. 'Oya eat quick quick o. Wetin you dey eat since!' She shouts at her. 'Let her enjoy her food Mama Princess' Mrs Johnson said as she comes from the room. 'Okay o, eat your food well well no rush o. This place na your new home you hear.' Mama Princess said as she faces Princess trying to let her feel relaxed, Princess opened her mouth to cry but the look on her mother's face made her look down to her food and kept quiet. 'Don't worry she will be fine here' Mrs Johnson said standing beside her 'I know she go dey fine. I wan start to dey go' Mama Princess stands adjusting her wrapper. 'Before you go take this' Mrs Johnson brought out an envelope with money. 'Ha! No o how I go collect that e go just be as if I come sell my pikin keep it I no want' deep down she wants the money 'Take it, it is a gift to you I am giving you as a gift' Mrs Johnson said 'Okay o if you say so' Shecollects the money 'Thank you ma. You don really try for me o' Mama Princess said 'It's nothing Mama Princess take care ma' Mrs Johnson said 'Thank you o bye bye' Mama Princess said as she moves towards the door. She looks back 'Princess bye bye' She waves her hand.
Princess couldn't take it she starts to cry, Mrs Johnson follows Mama Princess outside to see her off. 'Greet Princess Father o' Mama Princess said as they gets outside 'He go hear' As she was going she stares at the car coming in as Sule opens the door for the vehicle, she walks out of the house happily. 'Eh! Thank God o' She opens the envelope. 'Yeah see money!' She looks around to ensure no one is watching. She quickly wraps the envelope around her waist with her wrapper.

In Mrs Johnson's house the driver helps the boys to get out of the car. They run to their mother 'Mummy!' They hug Mrs Johnson. 'How is school today my lovely sons 'Fine' Joe said 'Not too fine' John said 'Why my dear' She asks him as she was worried but John smiled and said 'I am just joking mum' 'You this naughty boy you've started again ehn.' She said, relieved 'Let's go inside there is somebody inside waiting for us' She said as she bends whispered to them 'Who?' They asked 'When you get inside you will see.' She looks up to call the driver 'Ehn ehn, Taju don't forget to wash the car' 'Yes ma' The driver answered. They all enter the house...

THE GUY

The first time I heard him
I fell in love with his voice
The first time I saw him
I fell in love with his looks
When we started talking
My heart beats faster

#gbemieth

MORE LOVE(A song)

You said you love me
I know you do
But I want

More more more
More more love

You thought I never saw you
With that different chick
You thought I never saw
With that blondy babe

Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah

I saw you yeah I saw you
You're just a cheat
You kissed her lips
Right in the car

Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah

I'm not that stupid
And now I am sick
I'm sick and tired
Of your excuses

Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah

Last time we fought
You told me different thing
You only pleaded
You are damn guilty

Nah nah nah
Nah nah nah

You said you love me
And I know you do
But I want

More more more
More more love

#gbemieth

(I wrote this for the ladies who their guys always cheat on them, though they claim to love their partner but not faithful. Repent! Respect and show more love treat her like a queen she is)

WHILE WAITING

While waiting
Temptation keeps knocking
Opportunities from different angles
Not the right ones

I know because my spirit tells me
The one my heart beats for
Is still out there
Not that I am selfish
I am trusting my heart
It says hold on
It says be patient
It says it's about time
Just a little
He is on the way
Now  I know he is coming
I will be here
Waiting for him...

#gbemieth

HE CARES

He said he wants to be my man
He promised to be the man of my dreams
He wants to be by my side
He wants to be there
He cares a lot
He likes me
He wants me
He needs me
He loves me

I appreciate the love
I cherish the care
I like him as a man
He is cute
He has the perfect words
He is so unique

I am only confused
Why I don't love him in return

HOW I FEEL

How I wish you were mine
The first time I saw you
You melt my heart
I never knew I could feel that way
But it happened to me
I fell in love
That very moment

I tried to say NO
But your taught keeps flowing my mind
I distanced myself from you
But my heart was with you
I don't know how you feel about me
But if you tell me you don't feel the same
I don't know what comes next...

#gbemieth

YES, IT IS MINE

I know it is mine
If you care to know

I chose to cherish it
I chose to protect it
I chose to guide it
I chose to keep it
I chose to love it
Because it's mine

If you don't know before
Now you know

#gbemieth

IT IS YOURS

It's all yours
What you do with it now or later
It's all yours
Whether you keep it or not
It's all yours

Play with it if you like
It's all yours
If you cherish it
It's all yours
All for your own good
It's all yours

Know one drags
It with you
Because
It's all yours
Know one cares that much
Because
It's all yours
Even if they care a lot
It's still yours
You have all authority over it
Because
It's all yours
They can only do little afterall
It's all yours

Guide or loose it
It's all yours
Expose it or keep it
It's all yours
Protect it or trade with it
It's all yours

My dear
Do not forget
It is yours
Only you can make the decision
To do whatever with it
...

#gbemieth

WAITING

...

How much wait
Time is not to waste
Is it sweet in taste
Be in haste
Before it's too late

...

Look at him
Ready for you
Activate the sim
Now it's due

#gbemieth

LOVING YOU

I will love you with all my heart
I will forever cherish you
Waiting for the special one
That will fill my heart with LOVE

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
I want to spend forever with you

O SOGE SE

Oti gbagbe pe
Omo dudu gbayi lawujo
Adu ma 'a dan
Afi bi ti koro shin
Girisi lasan ti to o para

O ko romo ile ookan
Boyo lokankan
Awon okunrin a si boyin
Won a fe fi saya

Awo to wuni lopolopo
Ni dudu osun je

Omo dudu t'o n bora
O wa da bi ebora
Ma so pe o ko gbo
Ohun ti pasito fi preach
Se lo fi gbigbo
Se alaigbo
Nigbati o wa lo bleach
Iyen nigba t'o bora tan
So fun mi ki lo jo na

Ogede pipon to pon
Inu re baje
Ita re dudu
Loju re oti pon
Sugbon omo dudu si loje

To ba wa ya
Wa d'a lawo meji
Asin de orun de

O je s'ora oge 'se
Ko s'oge mo ni won

O bewaje je
Iyi ko si mo
O ma se o...

#gbemieth

THANKFUL

I just want to thank You
LORD
Thank You for Your mercy
Thank You for the grace
Oh Lord
I just want to thank You
Thank You for the love
Thank You for everything
LORD
I say
THANK YOU LORD
Yeah!
It's been GOD
All day
Na God
He reigns
In my life
He reigns
In my family
He reigns
In my work
He reigns
Yeeees!
Oh my God reigns
Hallelujah!

#gbemieth